A plausible finish.

I started writing in this blog April 9 2009, since then it has been a place I pour my heartache, loss and emptiness onto, as of now it holds a year 3 months and 3 days worth of writing. It has shown some signs of hope, but it always ends in defeat. I have a broken heart that will always show it's cracks. Ive tried my best to keep my head above water, keep my friendships from falling off and gain some kind of consistency in life, and still currently am. I'm losing hope with just about everything again, and these blank pages just don't satisfy me anymore.

I just want to be able to exist in the world, and not just the 4 walls of my bedroom.

I'm so lost without you.