bitter.

Everything that I am misses my sister so much, that sometimes I wake up not really comprehending that she is gone, all I know is that I need to find her and hug and tell her I love her, then reality sets in, and I remember she is gone.


I went to the cemetery today for the first time in a long time and I shoved pretty new flowers into the ground, becasue now the only thing I can buy for her, are fake plastic flowers.

and that makes me bitter and angry.


and I will never be ok with any of it.