I'm sorry.

I got a phone call this afternoon from my mom and the first thing she said was "have you seen your brother today?" my heart sank because I knew whatever was to follow was not gonna be good. At 12:30 this afternoon my brother was arrested for trashing the corner store by were he lives, he was drunk and high and out of his mind... I knew that this was gonna happen someday, he's been so manic lately, but I still wasn't prepared for it. I'm not exactly sure what the outcome of this will be, but there is a possibility that today's actions and what happened on last month, could add up to be his third strike, and that means prison.

As much as I fight with my brother, I have always held on to the hope that he could turn his life around, if he ends up in prison I'm afraid that's it for him, and that breaks my heart... How am I supposed to work on our relationship while he's behind bars, it's so unfair. I lost my sister to death and I'm so afraid that I'm gonna lose my brother to Prison.

My mom doesn't not deserve this life, she has one child in the ground, and one behind bars. If there is any reason to get my life together she is it, I need to make something of myself for her.