I guess I have to say it a few times to actually let it sink in, Ive gone from not seeing My sister for more than 4 days, too 2 months.
I can't seem to find enough words to describe the emptiness I feel anymore.
I feel like I keep trying to balance the old Amber and this new less awesome one, I try to keep conversations going, I try, But it just doesn't feel like it's working, I guess I finally need to accept that she is gone, she has been gone, she went with Monique. I'm still afraid that eventually nobody will love whats left of me, because fuck its not much.
I keep searching for my "somebody else", all my other friends have someone they go to, they hang out with they text and talk to that is kinda just theirs, and I get sad sometimes, Because I have to realize Monique was that to me, My somebody that no one else had, I mean don't get me wrong, all my friends had her and there amazing relationships. But the love and bond we shared, that was just ours and nobody else had that. Not even my mother
Monique, I miss you and I love you so much, these words just don't seem to be enough anymore.
Sad Girl Por Vida
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