Every day is like sunday.

I'm terrified of being alone. Ive gone almost 23 years always, always having someone and not just anyone, Monique.Even when I lived on my own, I talked to her everyday, and saw her every chance I got. Every morning I wake up so angry, because the first thing I realize is that mo is gone and I have to keep going.

I keep having these dreams, were I'm out with friends and then suddenly I realize I don't know were Monique is, I freak out and I start searching and searching and trying to find her, and then I realize that she is gone and I wake up, almost every night I have that dream, different places and people, same situation.

I just want to wake up up from this nightmare, I want to wake up and see Monique.