3:43am

I'm afraid to fall asleep, in fear of the nightmares I will have.

I have spent the last hour alone in my room, reading pages of sentences that have brought back the shock and pain that occurred February 28, 2009 (5:01pm)

Going over those words, I felt like I was standing in the I.C.U all over again, gazing at my other half, who lie there, with no more life left in her.

and it's killing me , to know that someone I love so much, was at one point in her life just a body covered in a white sheet, with a number tagged to her, so someone could cut into her, and try to figure out why the air stopped flowing through her lungs.

(it hurts)