The things no one knows how to talk about.

I am not ok, I am not dealing with the death of Monique well.

I find it very hard to except she is really gone, I came across an old home video from 06' I saw her alive for the first time in almost 5 months, my heart stopped, and I sat in front of the t.v, wishing I could just jump inside and put my arms around her, I sat there just wanting to hear her voice, I kept rewinding the beginning of the dvd, were she walks into the garage door, hoping that any second the front door would swing open and she would walk in, How could someone as amazing as her be gone?

I don't know how much longer I can go, without her.