My fisrt night out with Nathan, didn't really go as I thought, we didn't even really have a conversation, just small talk. I really don't know what I'm going to do.
I had a really tough morning, it being a year since my grandmother passed away, I really just wanted to stay in bed all day and hide, not having Monique made a already sad day, much worse. But I still got ready to go see dead mans bones, Phuong had a extra ticket and of coarse I knew who would enjoy the concert as much as I would, so Nathan joined, tonight went a little better, as much as I am mad at him and hurt, I really do love him, I find when my friendships leave me to feel like I'm not good enough, I just want to throw in the towel, I know nathan and I will probably never have the friendship we once did, But I don't know what to do, just pretend like he didn't just walk out on my life? and re appear when everyone tells him he should call me, or spend some time with me.....
it's all to much for me to stress over at the moment
On our way back from the city, we passed the hospital, I looked at my phone and noticed it was no longer October 27, 2009
it was October 28th, 2009...... 8 months down, the rest of my life to go.
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