"hey, were is Monique at?"

So last night I decided to go visit Alicia at Java, I was feeling ok after My Bunco Victory.

I sat in the same place I usually sit and chatted with Alicia while she had time, It was nice. I had missed her, I could tell she was happy to see me.

and I noticed someone who We used to work with at Spirit Halloween and my first thought was "fuck, I hope she doesn't come over here". Well she did, and of coarse right after asking how I was, she said to me "Hey, were is Monique at?" The last time someone asked me that I was drunk, This time I was completely defenseless and fuck it hurt, I literally felt my heart stop and found it hard to catch my breath and muster up the words, it took me a good minute to actually say the words.

After I said it, I found it physically impossible to go in to detail and the girl completely understood.

I didn't let it ruin my night, I ended up running into my brother who dragged me to the bar next door and ran into some friends, which was good for me, to be out arounf people I care about.

I wonder how many time's I'm gonna have to keep telling people, that she gone.

I don't think my heart could take much more, It hurts.