oh no I tried

Do I? I say I do. But those are just words, words that are nothing more than sound.

Ive been told I'm a strong a person, emotionally speaking. It's days like today I feel the need to question that. I'm not working, not looking, not trying. I'm putting good thought into finding a job, but I can't remember the last time I heard someone got a job by all the good thought they put into it. If I was really trying I would be working on a new resume, but instead I gave up when I couldn't remember how many times I worked at Spirit Halloween, trying to put dates and years together just brought back all the memories of those time's, if I start getting lost in those days I will most likely just become a ghost of who I am. Getting lost in days that only exist in my head now.

Whenever it gets close to the 28th of any month, I can feel the sting of loneliness set in even more, here I am, still counting the months. Wondering if I will still be some sad excuse for a human being a year from now .


probably.